Thursday, March 15, 2007
It's thursday already.. And I still got alot of stuffs to study.. I think my hope of getting 3As is vanished.. But I won't give up.. I will still try my very best.. During all these days, I tried very very hard to concentrate.. But somehow my concentration can't be long.. Haiz, don't know why.. Hope everything will come out smoothly..
I don't know what's gone into me man.. I think I'm crazy or what.. For once, I was feeling that.. And then, I'm feeling in another way.. Why? Why can't I be decisive and make a bloody firm stand.. The more I feeling all these, the more I think I should avoid it, in case I hurt anyone.. I don't wish to do so man..
Man, I feel like playing mahjong man.. But got block test next week, must study.. Must pia all the way man.. Maybe after block test, I will play till midnight? haha.. But hope I win money la, if not I will cry.. lol.. Oh ya, I think most of them don't know that I had lost the badminton match.. xq asked me whether I was affected by it, but I lied to her.. I was bloody disappointed by myself.. I could have done alot better, but don't know why, maybe it's the anxiety which cause me to lose my confidence.. Or is it I am really too lousy?? I don't know, those who were there said me n jh played very well.. But I jolly well knew that they said all these were just to console us.. Deeply in our heart, we know that we sux..
Recently, I'm feeling quite awkward.. Hope when school reopens the feeling is gone..
;rock YOU.
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