hey guess wat?? haha.. the time now is 3:31am!!! and i haven slp.. haha.. cos i jus can't get to slp.. maybe i was feeling guilty cos i kind of pon sch tdy.. actually i onli had a slight headache n i dun wanna go sch.. haha.. so sry guys to sort of make u all worry.. now already so many ppl not feeling good le, n yet i still add on to ur burden.. haha.. take care guys.. let's fight to promos all the way!! haha.. ya jinyu, i'm sry to tell u all tat thing.. make u being affected by it.. anyway, jus dun care.. although we r not one big family, but we r one small happy family rite?? haha... n i believe this family of ours will expand n hav more members!!! haha.. dun worry.. lol.. oh ya, to candace n mei xing, u two hor... better take good care of urselves ok?? dun tense up or wat n watch ur diet!!! haha.. take care.. n to weisheng, i noe all tis while u r trouble wif ur relationship.. but dun worry, everything will turn out fine.. jus folllow ur heart.. haha.. to canice, dun be so stress la.. haha.. try to relax ok??? and lastly, to sharon.. study hard for promos ok?? haha..




r u fed up wif mi?? r u angry wif mi?? i noe i was in the wrong.. i shld hav noe tat liking u is a torturing thingy.. i shldn't expect anything back from u.. even wanted u to be wif mi.. tat's so impossible.. i shld stop contridicting myself... yes, being ur gurdian angel is really very tough... i really very tired of being one.. but wat else can i do besides caring abt u?? u said u r moving on.. but the point is, u are moving further from mi... i tink tat u dun need to sort of avoid mi or wat.. cos i really understand le.. i am too stupid man, even my frens said so.. yup i am really very stupid.. and maybe i will carry on being one?? u guys keep telling mi to giv up?? yes i tink i shld, i shld giv up on having hopes tat u will accept mi one day as the day will nv come.. but i dun understand.. i dunno y wat holding mi back to move on?? y can't i jus be like mi in the past?? y until now den i noe how to cherish ppl?? it's too late man.. if i learn to cherish ppl, all these things would not happen.. so can i beg u, pls, pls, at least let mi be ur gurdian angel??? u really dun hav to return anything back or feel guilty.. care for u is the least i could do.. is the least i could expect.. and is the least u will allow...

i am gettting sick!! sick n tired of studying.. how i wish i could jus forget everything n go on wif my carefree life.. lol.. dun wish to bother abt whether i will retain or wat.. who cares man?? lol.. jus try my best can le.. maybe the lifestyle of studying until 4am doesn't work for mi.. i can't really concentrate man.. so shit.. haha.. tml has pe.. i wan to enjoy the fullest during tat period man... so to destress n....



i dunnno wat's wrong wif mi today.. y am i always like contridicting myself.. saying tat i dun mind u like other guy but at the same time i dun wish u to like him.. i dun care whether u accept mi or not.. but at the same time i wan to be wif u 4ever.. wat the fuk am i tinking? y?? y am i so useless?? maybe, maybe i shld jus be a flirt?? nah i cannot be one again.. i had already lost the charisma.. i really wan to cry, but i noe i can't.. cos it's like so useless to do so.. so wat for cry rite?? yea, maybe i am not ur idea guy.. but i dun wan to giv up.. y am i so persistent to u?? even though ws had said that i shld giv up.. but y am i so stubborn? maybe i shall be single for the rest of my life?? can anyone tell mi wat i shld do?? actually i shld not ask, cos i noe wat they will say.. rite guys?? but u all dunno.. mi myseld also dunno y am i like tis.. i find myself stupid too.. haiz.. omg, i can't feel my heartbeat, maybe it's gone?? pls, can u tell mi wat i shld do to make u fall in love wif mi? to be frank, i dun mind being a substitute.. i dun mind being a ball to being thrown around.. as long as u are fine wif it.. i dun mind be anything.. sry to my frens.. everytime make u all so fed up wif mi.. i try my best to stay cheerful ok?? but no assurance ok?? maybe i shld not hav come to JC.. leading such a stressful life made mi even more depress..



wat will be my tml???

guess wat?? now is like 1:47 n i haven slp?? haha.. actually i jus woke up not long ago.. n i plan to study until 4 AGAIN... listen is AGAIN ok?? haha.. tis kind of lifestyle i hate it man.. but i hav no choice... promos coming mah!!! listen hor, LIMWEISHENG!!!! it's onli 2-3 wks left.. not one mth.. haha.. ok enuff of scaring ppl.. had kind of a bad headache today.. i am not emo ok... haha.. jus really can't smile tat much.. haha.. sry guys.. lol...


eh.. u haven ans my qns.. izzit becos u dun wan or wat? dun worry, ever since i started to love u, i had already prepared the worst for myself.. yes i am stupid, willing to scarifice everything jus for the sake of u.. maybe tis is wat i call true love? alot might not believe true love.. but to mi, i still insist in believing it.. i dun care who u going to like or wat.. but jus wan u to noe tat i will still love u... yes mushy.. haha.. but i mean it.. u said u are going to move on, forgetting him.. but will i be the one u going to move on to? yes i am jealous when u tok abt u noe.. haha.. but who won't?? everytime i am dreaming... dreaming of one day ur hand will be on mine.. wishing u will stay on my side.. ahhhh forget it.. ZHUWEN! wake up, it's like impossible??

my confidence of pass tis year promos is getting lower and lower.. maybe retain is good for mi?? working wif a new class... lol... but i will be missing 112 ppl.. i can't bear to retain.. i mus really try my best to get promoted man.. i dun wan to disappoint anyone.. but tis wk i am very very unproductive, all becos of PW.. it sux man..

y? y r u like tis.. can't u jus be more responsible n stop being so childish can?? pls grow man.. no pt getting fed up and in the end do nth good for u.. it's useless ok.. seeing ur attitude like tis really makes mi feel like beating u.. luckily i'm not a crude guy.. if not u will be whacked by mi until like shit.. jus like wat i like to do in the past..


USELESS!!! yes useless is the word to say abt mi.. i am so so so useles.. y am i so persistant in love?? can't i jus be a flirt n tat's it... maybe.. maybe tis is karma.. in the past i hurt my exs feelings.. and now is the retribution i gt.. ok i am sry man.. last time i am so dam immature.. but now, i hav grown up n i realise my mistake.. pls, pls let mi win ur heart.. yes, i willing to giv u everything without any return.. but sometimes, i do really wan u to hav mi in ur heart.. all these while, i feel like say "I LOVE YOU" out loud.. wan u to noe how much i care for u... wan u to noe tat i wan to be wif u forever.. but the moment i noe that "something", i dun tink i shld say it.. cos u won't be happy, u won't wan to be wif mi.. my heart hurts, tis afternoon really very sry.. partly is becos of that thing.. but the other part is u.. not tat i am angry wif u.. is jus tat i was damn sad.. i dunno y, jus feeling damn sad... i really feel like crying, but i dun hav tears.. i wan to break down.. but i can't do so.. i wan alot of things, but those things jus won't come to mi.. i swear, if, IF one day u accept mi.. trust mi, i will make u be the most fortunate gal in the world.. i will really treat u the best... best out of the best.. eh, zhuwen, stop daydreaming..

did pw almost like the whole day?? haha... den went to mei xing's hse to mug... but didn't really study alot.. haha.. who cares.. if i retain, i really needa say "sorry" to my mum.. i dun wanna to disappoint her.. so pls, pls let mi pass my promos.. i wan to go to uni.. i wan to study TCM.. i wan!!! thank you phyllis!!! thx for so caring.. really very grateful.. ya.. dun worry, i can do it one.. who am i?? i am zhuwen lei.. haha...

why? why r u so moody?? i noe u are very stress.. but will u allow mi to stand by ur side?? i wan to support u.. seeing u in this kind of state, really sadden mi.. i can't bear to see u like tis.. i dun mind u treat mi very cold or wat.. i jus wan u to smile.. y am i so useless?? y i can't cheer u up?? y am i so boring??? pls.. pls let my stupid brain works.. let mi tink of ways to make u smile.. i noe if i continue doing all these.. i am like gonna suffer alot.. yes i noe it's very painful for mi.. but as long as u feel good, u r happy, i tink all these sufferings are worthwhile.. so pls.. oks let mi be ur pillar of support ok?? i really wan to help u...

my written report... sux.. can somebody help mi n my grp.. i wan to get good grades man.. so frustrating man.. we did so much n yet still get an AE.. wat the hell man.. i am damn tired le.. tdy sch sux.. i dunno y.. jus very bored... haha.. forget it..


tdy has been a bad day for u gal.. i hope tis will be the onli day tat u will feel like tis.. i find myself so useless, cos i can't even help u to make u feel better... man, wat shld i do?? am i really boring?? i find myself quite boring, but do u feel the same way too?? sometimes u r cold, n sometimes u r hot.. ur temperature is so hard to adapt.. but no matter how hard it is, i will try my best n i won't giv up.. i had failed, failed to keep u happy.. failing doesn't mean i will fail all the way.. i will try my best to keep u happy ok?? i wan to noe, wan to noe whether how u feel abt mi.. when? when will the day come?? i am very very tired.. will u be my pillar of support?? i need u.. need u to be by my side... but will ya?? btw u also dun hav to, cos i am nth to u...

omg!!!! i can't believe... i can't believe tat CANICE SAR really go n put the video in youtube!!! it's so embarassing... ah... alot of Yjcians are going to my spastic moves!!!! shit.. haha.. nvm, who cares??? like wat mei xing said, i have no face to lose.. haha.. btw, i am trying to type in proper english cos somebody say my posts' english's standards are very lousy.. argh... i am sorry man, all this while, my english is always like tis one.. haha.. i will try to type properly ok??? so far so good rite??? haha.. saw yjc youtube jus now.. saw some of the bands performances.. oh man, i miss performing alot... i still rmb that day i jammed wif yi en, gen, andrew, soon yong they all.. so fun man.. when can we jam again guys?? next yr mus join the chinese competiton ok??? we will win one!!! haha.. so bhb.. lol.. tdy is the very first time i didn't study anything at all for my test... chem test somemore man.. haha.. all becos i set my alarm at 9am whereby i shld wake up at 9pm.. wat the... haha... nvm forget it... at most i will jus fail the test.. hais..



i am getting happier... really happy in the sense tat i am not faking at all.. maybe we are getting closer as frens?? i noe u will be happier if we are frens.. but u noe.. u shld noe tat i dun really wan tat.. but at the same time also cannot force u.. also, i gt a feeling tat something wrong wif u.. i dunno.. the thought of u n him tgt really scare mi.. i am really scare to see this scene happen.. i dun wan to happen!!! i can't bear to see tat happen.. if, if one day u would say those three words to mi, i really dun hav an regrets man.. even if it's like one day, one hr or even one second, i am contented..

had pw tdy.. is a short one.. n we did not complete it.. how??? tml is the deadline le.. how how how??? sharon n canice was late.. n clement didn't come, dunno whether will he do his part.. n eve cannot make it.. wat the.. omg.. i wan to get EE one guys.. so let's do a good job ok??? damn sad la tdy.. go alllllll the way to douby ghuat alone... n come back from there alone too... sad sad sad.. haha.. i purposely one... wan to make someone guilty.. haha.. no la.. it's ok to be alone.. lol.. tml gt econs test, man.. i haven study.. so tired...


when?? when will the day come??? i noe the day is still very far far away.. wat i can do now?? jus wait.. wait is the onli thing i can do.. i hope one day we can go out tgt, enjoy the day, n that will be the most memorable day for mi man.. tdy i told canice tat i dun mind scacrifice without getting anything back in return.. ya i really dun mind.. but sometimes i really hope to get a little thing return back.. r u still missing him?? if u r... wat i can say is tat either u move on, if not i support u to go for it.. my fren is saying tat i am so stupid, trying to be somebody's substitute... but i dun care.. as long as u like it, u wan it, u r happy wif it.. i am willing to be his substitute.. whenever i dun see u.. i dun feel comfortable as i hav that emptiness inside my heart.. the urge to see u again.. i really miss u alot alot.. but... nvm.. haha.. u had so many entertainers.. am i jus a ordinary entertainer to u?? can i be the most impt person u ur life?? i dun wan jus to be ur entertainer.. i wan to be ur.....

i am bored!!!! tis kind of lifestyle i dun like.. staying at home on weekends is jus so so soooo boring.. i hope to get out of tis lifestyle soon.. staying at home, nth to do.. no one to tok wif.. onli can study, study, STUDY!!! sianz u noe... SIANZ.. haha.. but something very proud to say... i did wr.. haha.. n i even assigned some work for my grp members.. but the problem is.. i msg them, no one reply.. wat the man.. guys, pls get ur jobs done n reply mi asap ok??? no matter wat, tml is a mus for us to meet hor.. haha..



whenever i hav nth to do, i will always tink of u.. tinking of how hav u been doing.. r u happy tdy.. n many many things... there's very intense competition for mi.. ya i am scare, but i will be brave.. be brave to accept any outcome it might be.. be brave to "fight" with all of them.. haha.. even if at the end of the day i lost the battle, i hav no regrets.. cos at least i hav tried.. i dun mind to be a substitute.. i dun mind how u treat mi.. as long as u r happy, i dun mind doing anything for u.. there are so many obstacles for mi to clear, i am afraid i am unable to clear it all... i wonder, wonder tat day will come or not.. but i am waiting... still waiting...

i am damn damn damn tired.. we haven finish our wr.. luckily our deadline is extend.. but will we be able to do so?? haha.. dunno y.. tdy's lesson is so long man.. am the weather is so cold.. haha.. such a good weather to slp.. n shocking is tat alot ppl nv come.. haha.. brave man.. lol.. guys, promos are coming, do take care if urselves.. haha.. dun fall sick ok?? haha.. went for drum lessons, the teacher really toks alot.. haha.. but nvm la.. i jus love playing drum.. it's jus so cool..


i dunno why, my heart, my heart has nothing but u.. i really really love u alot.. sry to say such a mushy thing.. ytd, finally u told mi tat.. i really very grateful.. to say the truth, i really hope tat i can replace him in ur heart.. but if i can't, i jus onli can hope tat he will accept u? i enjoy alot being wif u.. but do u feel the same too?? maybe i am too quiet n boring bah.. haha.. dun worry, i am not tinking so much.. if, if i hav a chance, i promise i will really treasure this chance alot n will nv let go.. i can assure u tat, i will be the one who love u the most.. really..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GERM!!!
hope u like the present we bought.. lol.. sry didn;t sing birthday song for u.. haha.. hope u will be happy 4evea..

oh man.. tml is wr deadline.. n i haven done my maths homework.. how how how?? i dun tink i need to slp le.. but i am so damn tired.. recently keep forgetting to bring things.. is tis a sigh of stress?? but luckily, i woke up early today.. haha.. yay! LOL.. den went to northpt to help canice choose clothes, but in the end she didn't buy any.. haha..

recently i didn't tok abt it le.. not tat i hav no more feelings or i dun wan to say.. is tat i tink saying it is like no use.. am i really a gd catch?? to mi, i dun tink so.. if yes, u will hav long accept mi.. but nvm.. it's not ur fault.. rite now i jus wish to noe whether anything bothering u??? anything tat i can help u??? to be frank, i dun really like seeing u toking secretly wif ws n mx.. u can tell mi too if u one.. i will be most willing to hear tat.. yup.. am i really tat noble?? nah i dun tink so, tat's jus the least i could do.. ensuring u r ok... make sure no one can hurt u.. n if can, i wish to be ur guardian angel...

man.. hav no mood to study at all now..so boring.. these few days i like can't really wake up.. can somebody giv mi a morning call?? lol.. nvm man.. jus pray tat tml i can wake up.. lol.. tdy i am so bored tat i went to guitar club n took one guitar n played.. but nobody wan to accompany mi.. sad... den hav a "fight" wif dylon tdy at councillor room.. haha.. so fun.. but feel so bad after making everything so messy.. lol.. den wait for ws to do finish his wr den we walk home tgt.. lol.. i did not study at all tdy!!! HOW HOW HOW?????


ok u win.. manage to see my tiny words.. haha.. hope u dun mind wat i hav wrote ok.. i noe tat thing but i dun wanna say.. jus wish u happiness ok?? haha.. like someone say "bu shi ni de jiu bu shi ni de" haha.. but i seriously hope tat u will tell mi those probs next time.. yes i will get jealous, tat's a confirm thing.. but i hope to share ur burden, at least as a fren.. ws's asked mi tat qns kept revolving in my mind, oh man i could not get it out.. it's like keep repeating inside.. he said tat i cannot act to be happy.. but am i?? i really really dunno.. i wanna be happy, i cannot be sad.. but can i do it?? yea it's true tat currently tis situation is much better, maybe to u bah.. to mi, i dunno.. as a fren, i tink yes.. but on the other hand, i am damn so not happy.. but wat to do? like i hav said.. if u hav no more worries n stay cheerful as ever, tat's already very good for mi..

wah.. exams coming nearer n nearer.. everyone's face are sooo damn black.. i hav no choice, but to act stupid, act clown, act funny jus to hope a receive a smile from them.. i noe everyone is stress.. but mus learn how to relax ok guys?? jia you!!! we can promot as a class one.. come on let's do it man.. yay!!! lol.. from now on, i am studying in sch for like until 9?? haha.. so dam late man.. tgt wif ws, sharon, mx.. lol.. so glad to hav them as company to study.. wif them around, study isn't tat bored man.. haha..although we keep chit-chatting as we study.. but at least still gt study la... haha.. man hope i able to study finish man.. lol..


tdy ws asked mi, whether am i happy in tis way we r... but am i?? i dunno.. yes i am happy, happy for u.. n i had to be happy, i cannot put in my stupid, ugly, black face anymore man.. yes i noe i am a boring person, but wat can i do.. lol.. to be frank, i.... ah, dun wan to say.. if u like it tis way, den i shall accept it.. i am really proud of myself, cos i able to go back to the usual mi, but at the same time, i am ***... rite now, i am feeling numb.. man, dun even noe wat i writing..

hi i am back from a one day chalet.. didn;t really get to enjoy fully.. cos i was very worry abt my promos n many other stuffs.. my state of mind now very confuse after i saw ws blog.. i feel tat i am so useless.. jus a little setback n i broke down... omg, tat's really very useless.. but nvm.. i will try my best to be strong as ever... lol.. ytd, before going to chalet, i JAMMED at hse!!! omg, JAMMING!!! haha.. actually is a mini version la.. mi, my sis n bro, we on the karaoke set audio, n i played guitar, while my brother played the drum...(although not really tat gd, but still commendable) den my sis sang.. n u noe wat? we perform the song by jay "qing tian".. omg so fun.. haha.. den after i rush down to pasir ris to meet my sec sch frens.. den i performed guitar for them again!! lol.. looks like they hav a different impression of mi.. so happy.. haha.. bt was quite disappointed wif someone.. he say he would come, den in the end like usual, he didn;t.. not tat i dun understand him, is jus tat if he cannot come, at least giv us a call or wat n dun giv false hope mah.. hais.. forget it.. he now is in the state of "love".. so ya.. i wan to study again:( damn sad can.. hais.. so stress.. lol.. but i can take it.. haha..

i found out something, i noe everything le.. maybe really, really i shld not force u to make decision le.. besides, i tink u already made urs.. u dun hav to say anything, i shall not bother u anymore.. but no matter wat, i noe we will still be frens bah.. pls pardon mi if i these few days behave strangely.. is becos i dunno how to face u.. really.. sry.. if u really like him, den go for it.. i will support u.. u may tink tat by writing this seems like i hav given up on u, but i jus wanna say tat i didn't n i will nv giv up.. guess i shall be alone for the rest of my life.. pls god, pls let tis gal get her happiness.. pls let them be tgt again.. all i wan is to see u smile n be happy like u used to be.. i dunno whether will u be reading my posts.. ah.. i dunno wat to say.. my heart is broken yet at the same time i noe i hav to let u go.. shld not bother u.. shld even help u to be wif him?? some ppl say, "loving someone dun really needs to be wif her".. in the past, i use to think tat it's all bullshit.. but now, i tink i am doing tis rite now.. if u like tis kind of situation we r in now, dun worry, we will carry on be like tis.. but no matter wat, i shall be ur guardian angel.. trust mi, i will not let anyone hurt u.. n if u n him really tgt, pls better make sure he treats u nice.. if not i will not let him off.. i will change, i wanna change.. i wan to change to the zw who dun even giv a damn abt gals, jus focus on wat i wan, which is music.. maybe music can help mi forget everything.. forget all the pains... bt there's one thing i will not forget, tat is U... u may be the first woman who let mi burst out my tears.. or maybe not.. pls make sure tat u r happy, if u r happy, tat's everything to mi.. really...

i am damn stress!!!!!!!! somebody help.. today almost wanna go clement's hse n whack him man.. he is soo sooo soooo irritating.. he is a ******... force mi to scold vulgar man.. promos is coming.. i am damn damn so scare.. i dun wanna retain.. my mother will be disappointed.. my bro will laugh at mi.. den i wil hav to decide whether to stay or go poly.. omg.. pls dun let mi retain god.. i am very very scare.. went for drum lesson.. didn't really hav any mood to go.. cos my mind was stress up.. i am very very stress... how i wish someone can stand by my side n support mi.. i might break down anytime.. sry my frens if i suddenly lose temper at u all.. jus take it tat i am crazy bah.. haha...

i tink both of us r very stress.. i am damn stress too.. but i wish we can go back to the past.. n jus stuck there forever.. it doesn't matter whether u accept mi.. i noe tis period will be very tough for u.. but jia you ok?? dun giv up.. but at the same time, dun stress urself out ok.. try to relax for awhile..

man such a tiring day... study for like a few hrs?? lol.. while playing guitar at the same time.. haha.. i wan to form a band.. but can i?? haha.. i wan to perform wif band again.. i love performing.. haha.. i missed teacher's day performance.. haha.. den went downstairs to play soccer.. haha.. can't imagine i am sick yet u still go play.. lol.. end up making myself so tired n dun hav energy to study.. haha.. but soccer was fun..i love it.. lol..

i dunno y.. maybe it's exam-stress?? or something?? maybe we r drifting apart?? oh i dun wish to tis happen.. i really really miss u alot.. i jus wan to see u smile.. i hope u can tok to mi.. but can i get all tis??? sometimes i tink i shld be like him?? lol..

omg.. can't believe i went for church once again.. lol.. went to see my "band" members.. dunno whether they will accept mi or not.. all r quite pro man.. lol.. den watch their performance, listen to some of them tok... den went for the concert.. omg. everyone was so high except for mi.. i jus cannot be tat high.. n i was totally concentrate at the drummer.. trying to listen to his style of playing.. i wan to join a band.. i wan to perform.. i wan to be a professional drummer.. hais.. when can i achieve tat???

jus nw i did pray to god.. for the sake of u.. hope he can answer mi.. although i really hate to say n see tis happen.. but i jus hope tat u can be happy.. so i am going to support u.. "u are near yet u seem so far" tat's wat i like to say.. lol.. there's one thing i haf to make clear.. i am petty anymore.. i was jus not feeling well so giv everyone tat kind of face.. realy.. last thing.... i miss u...

tdy did written report.. omg it's the first time everyone was here.. haha.. but they were very late except for mi.. i tot i was the onli one late.. in the end, i end up waiting for the rest.. no choice hav to read the written report n edited a few of it.. haha.. but dunno whether it is useful or not.. but who cares?? jus write onli.. den went to do.. everyone was so serious.. haha.. so boring man... i hate doing written report.. hope after finish this one, it will be an EE and we can totally forget abt it.. haha..

i noe, i noe something... but nvm.. i dun mind at all.. i promised u i will not be tat petty anymore, n true i did it... really, i not angry at all.. but can u answer tat qns?? no matter wat, i jus wan u to be happy like i promised.. i will always support u.. how i wish i was him.. how i wish u will care abt mi.. how i wished so many many things.. oh well, tat's all jus wishes.. doesn't really matter whether did it happen or not.. no matter who u love, who u care, i jus wanna say... i will not giv up.. i will wait for u..

tdy hav maths lecture for 3 dam long hrs.. omg.. somemore i was feeliing sux.. felt as if whole body was floating.. lol.. omg i tink i am dam sick.. hope i can be better.. cos i dun wan to see doctor.. trying very very hard to concentrate but my drowsiness disabled mi to do so.. den some more phy n zx so noisy man.. haha.. good to see them ok again.. dun worry.. everything will be fine ok phy?? haha.. i am so disappointed wif zx... can't he jus tell mi he gt gf??? or is he scare tat i will laugh at him?? wat the.. i jus wan to noe how he's been doing.. ahh.. forget it.. lol.. gt back our WR.. one word to describe it... "SUCKS" hais.. hope tml when we meet up to do can be better, hopefully get an EE straight away.. haha.. tis morning, did something nice? haha but to her dunno la.. dun really noes how she feels.. hope she will like it man.. haha..

the moment i sees u, my heart melts.. i dunno y.. the more i sees u, the more i miss u.. how i wish i can be wif u.. but is it possible?? ya i will wait.. always wait for u.. seeing u happy jus make my day.. jus a smile on ur face, i am really contented.. really..

man.. i am so bored.. i am so sick.. whole body feeling so weak.. having asthma.. omg.. shld not hav eat so much things ytd night.. who call mi to be so greedy.. haha.. lol.. actually wan to study one.. but too weak to study.. end up keep sleeping the whole day.. i am really glad tat u r happy.. no words can describe my feelings rite now.. i dunno y.. each day, my feelings 2wards u is getting stronger n stronger.. i hope to see u everyday.. i miss u every minute n sec.. i noe it's mushy.. but i gt no more words to say except for this.. haha.. hope u will wear tat necklace i gave u.. n hope u will look pretty on it man.. man.. tdy whole day stay at home.. oh ya, forget to mention abt mrs ang.. she called mi to help her sell the tickets but in the end i could not get anyone to buy.. i am so sorry man.. i sort of pity her.. dunno la.. haha..

HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY!!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MUMMY!!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHARON TAN KAI LING!!!!

31/08/06
performed in yjc as a band.. omg, it was my very first time.. i was damn scare, nervous, n excited.. the day before we had rehearsal in sch n we were sux.. can't believe we did it today.. my palms were all wet n whole body was shivering when i walked to the drum set.. i try to stay calm but when i lifted up my head n see everyone in the hall.. omg... so scary.. at first, i gt abit off-beat.. but after a while, i was able to catch up n it was a success.. not onli mi.. the rest of the bands did well.. those actors did entertain the audience.. n those singers did touch them too.. haha.. now it's all over.. n i sort of miss the jamming sessions... miss performing already..omg i wan to jam more n perform more..hope my tis band can get tgt n jam more.. i love jammin!!! next yr yi ye cheng ming i am going to join man.. haha..

01/09/06
tdy is a big big day!!! it's sharon's birthday!!! also it's mummy's birthday too.. i am so damn busy.. haha.. woke up quite early to make sure i gt prepare everything n won't be late.. den went to meet jin yu n gisela.. after tat went to tpy to meet canice n mei xing.. den we went to kbox.. i am sry guys.. sort of sulken down all of ur moody.. party is becos i am sick and also i dun really like kbox.. but i enjoy being wif u all.. haha.. u guys rox man.. den sharon had came.. finally the leading gal reached.. haha.. den we gt her a surprise cake.. omg i tink i am so unromantic man.. i held the cake like wood like tat.. hais... haha.. den we gave her the present, inside is.... haha.. cannot say.. lol.. den by rite i shld give her the present i prepared for her.. but i was scare.. haha.. so i waited.. den ws came later.. den omg he was dam high.. n his singing like crying man.. so much tou yin.. lol.. den after tat we went around walk walk.. den is so nice of meixing to hav tthe thought of buying a roxy wallet on the behalf for us to giv sharon.. she seems so touched.. i am so happy to see her like tis.. den she gave everyone a hug.. but i was so stupid man.. u guys shld noe y.. haha.. den i sent her to the mrt station as she needa go off early.. finally i had the courage to giv her the present man.. when she saw the present, she was so shocked n surprise.. man ytd i prepared so much wanting to say to her.. but tdy i can't even say anything out.. i wanted to say how much u mean to mi.. so on n so on.. but guess the things i wrote inside the box had help mi said out almost everything bah.. wonder wat u hav in mind when u read all tat man.. haha.. den i went for my drum lesson.. tutor said i improved.. so happy.. yay! i wan to be a professional drummer.. den after i went to buy roses n wanted to go her hse n give her.. but i msged her she didn't reply.. den i tink it's fate bah.. so i throwed it away.. den went all the way down to orchard to find my mama.. haha.. bought her a sunglass for $200++ man.. but i fork out $50.. lol.. den we went to eat.. etc etc etc.. haha.. really had a great day tdy.. these days i really very happy.. n i will always rmb it man.. hope u enjoy the day too.. ya like wat the things i wrote.. as long as u happy, i am also happy for u.. lastly, i wan to say... "I Miss You"

YOU ARE SO NEAR YET YOU SEEM SO FAR

Lee Zhuwen

Yishun Junior College

L0vES
drums and jamming are my new loves.

not forgetting soccer n badminton..

love my drumset too..

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BIrthDaY
17th June 1989

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