Monday, March 19, 2007
It's block test le.. Had GP paper today.. Erm the time seems to pass faster this time round.. lol.. But I don't think I will do well.. Maybe will get the usual grade Fail.. Never mind man.. It's ok.. I want to focus more on my 3As.. Haha.. Tomorrow will be chem paper.. Can say I'm alright with it except for the last 3 chapters- Hydroxy groups, Carbonyl compund and Carboxylic acid.. Wah these three chapters keep giving me headache.. Luckily tomorrow's paper is in the afternoon, still got some time.. But after tomorrow's paper, it will be a hell to me.. Because wed is Econs AND Bio.. Wah econs... Think my hope of scoring in econs is gone based on the kind of teacher we have...
Had a "reward" today where I didn't even do anything.. The chocolates are nice.. Thanks.. The note is sweet.. Thanks again.. Now then I starts to appreciate everything.. haha..
;rock YOU.
5:09 AM
Saturday, March 17, 2007
I have made a very important decision.. I don't whether it's right or not.. I'm afraid of everything.. Afraid of can't being committed.. Afraid of failure.. Afraid of what others say.. Nothing but just a big fat word AFRAID... I don't know what's wrong with me.. And I also don't know how this feeling came back.. Since it came back, let's just hope it will stay and stop making me indecisive.. Then, what if, the situation is not what I expected?? Won't that mean I'm dead?? Omg, I don't dare to make any move.. It's like stepping on a mine ground.. One wrong move will burst your body apart..
I'm very impress with mx, jy and ws.. Next week is the block test and they are still able to go out and enjoy themselves.. Unlike me, only know how to stay at home trying to study where in the end nothing is accomplished.. I don't know why, just can't get the facts into my pea brain.. Maybe Jc is just too hard for me.. Yea right man, last year I said this to myself.. Then in the end I still get promoted.. So, I believe I can do it one.. Still got 2 more days to study man.. JIA YOU EVERYONE!!! Anyway, it's only block test.. Our main focus should be the A'level.. Ya... Next year when the results release, I want to go up stage and get my results.. 3As...
;rock YOU.
1:07 AM
Thursday, March 15, 2007
It's thursday already.. And I still got alot of stuffs to study.. I think my hope of getting 3As is vanished.. But I won't give up.. I will still try my very best.. During all these days, I tried very very hard to concentrate.. But somehow my concentration can't be long.. Haiz, don't know why.. Hope everything will come out smoothly..
I don't know what's gone into me man.. I think I'm crazy or what.. For once, I was feeling that.. And then, I'm feeling in another way.. Why? Why can't I be decisive and make a bloody firm stand.. The more I feeling all these, the more I think I should avoid it, in case I hurt anyone.. I don't wish to do so man..
Man, I feel like playing mahjong man.. But got block test next week, must study.. Must pia all the way man.. Maybe after block test, I will play till midnight? haha.. But hope I win money la, if not I will cry.. lol.. Oh ya, I think most of them don't know that I had lost the badminton match.. xq asked me whether I was affected by it, but I lied to her.. I was bloody disappointed by myself.. I could have done alot better, but don't know why, maybe it's the anxiety which cause me to lose my confidence.. Or is it I am really too lousy?? I don't know, those who were there said me n jh played very well.. But I jolly well knew that they said all these were just to console us.. Deeply in our heart, we know that we sux..
Recently, I'm feeling quite awkward.. Hope when school reopens the feeling is gone..
;rock YOU.
6:47 AM
Friday, March 09, 2007
Please.. Someone can call me a bastard.. Tell me that I am a fuker, a jerk, what ever horrible and gruesome creatures you can think of to scold me.. Why am I such a fuker.. Last time secondary school I was like this, then now come to Jc I'm still like this.. Why can't I learn my mistake??? Why must I commit the same thing again???
If I could turn back the time, how I wish nothing had happened at all.. We all just stay where we are and did not interfere each other's life at all.. I don't want to hurt anyone.. I don't want to have karma again.. I have gone through just to get rid of it.. And I think it will come back if I commit this mistake again.. But given the situation, I guess I have no choice but to accept karma.. Oh my god I know I sux.. Everyone please forgive me.. I really don't mean all these to happen one..
I just want to spent the rest of my jc life peacefully and study very very hard for my 3As.. I want to prove to others that I can do it.. I want to make my mother proud.. I want my friends to know that I make the bloody right choice of going to JC instead of poly..
Why? Last year I really hope to have a gf and no one came to me.. But now when I don't want, people come.. Not saying I bhb or what.. But ya.. Is it wrong to treat girls nice and be a real gentleman?? I really don't know what to say.. What I can say is I AM REALLY VERY VERY SORRY.. Please forgive me when you know this thing.. Please..
;rock YOU.
6:16 AM
Sunday, March 04, 2007
Finally i decided to post something.. haha.. Getting really tired and lazy to do so.. lol.. I know everyone's not very happy about their A'lvl chinese results.. But guys, it's all over.. Hope you all stop thinking about it and proceed on.. Don't let these negative stuffs affect ur life..
Did NARFA test yesterday.. I must say I was damn angry man.. I could have got a gold man.. Just all because of my SIT AND REACH... Where I only need one pathetic CM to get a gold.. Forget it man.. I'm going to retake anyway. Bought a bagpack at town.. Don't know why, I feel abit regretted buying it.. Hope my friends won't critise my bag that much to make me feel even more regretful..
Maybe what jh said is true... We guys are very realistic.. Although we keep saying what it matters is the girl's heart.. But come on man, who does wish for gf who is quite pretty too?? I mean, not only guys go for looks, alot of girls go for looks too.. What we guys want is to hope that our gf will dress up nicely so to make us feel proud.. Is that too much?? Yes, I admit I'm not the most handsome guy or what, but what i expect or wish for is not too much for my standard ok.. Ah forget it, the knot in my heart, is dead.. And no one will be able to untie it..
;rock YOU.
12:25 AM
