oh my god!!!!!!! my face getting more n more pimples.. how how how?? i am getting uglier n uglier.. no wonder no gals wan mi.. haha.. man gt so many hmk undone, wat shld i do?? i am too lazy to do anything.. i hav no strength to do it.. where is my hardworking attitude i used to have?? oh man.. pls come back.. i tink i am so so sooooo useless.. can't even get anything done.. now i noe y my eyes had be twitching le.. now it doesn't cos the bad thing had already happen.. dun even noe wat's gone into mi tat day.. it's like i been possessed.. omg, zw u r so so soooo stupid.. tis is the very first time i hate myself.. in the past, i keep advising my frens not to hate themselves, but now i am doing tis myself.. wat the hell.. hey i am really sry to u n my frens around mi.. i noe i've been crazy tis few wks or so.. haha.. dun worry, xiao zhu lee zhu wen will be back.. i will be back!!! hahaha.. pls giv ourselves time.. i believe we can be like the past.. no matter who u gonna be wif in the end.. i will respect ur decision... n i wan u to noe tat, whenever u r sad, i will always stand by ur side.. i will always be ur side supporting u making every decision..

hey i am back.. getting to blog more regularly.. lol.. i find tat myself is a very stupid person.. easily influence by wat others said.. y shld i care so much abt wat others say?? went for teacher's day rehearsal ytd.. totally shit man.. waited for so long den we didn't get to play becos the stupid mixer's fuse blown up.. wat the hell.. sulken everyone's mood man.. now den i realise our sch gt so many play music.. den i the most noob among all those drummers.. lol.. so fun.. ytd the drumset was there, den all the drummers took turn to show off their skill.. lol.. guess mine was the lousiest.. lol.. i am very sry gal.. i didn't noe tis time round i really disappointed u.. i noe i shldn't tink so much.. but i really value u alot... u mean alot to mi u noe.. i really hope to be wif u.. share wif u my happiness n help u carry ur burden.. at the end of the day, even if i dun hav the chance to do so, it's ok.. no need to feel guilty.. but i jus dun wan to giv up.. even i noe tat u won't even giv mi a chance, but i jus dun wan to do so.. i am so sry.. i will try to to do tis again..

ni zhi dao mah? wo zhen de hen lei hen lei.. wei sen mo ne? wo zhi ji ye bu zhi dao.. wo ting dao ta men suo seng mo seng mo.. ke shi wo que bu guan.. yin wei i zi xiang xing ni.. ke shi ni le? ni xiang xing wo ma? ni hui zai hu wo ma?? wo zhi dao wo pei bu shang ni, suo yi wo bing mei you yao qiu seng mo.. hen duo ren zui ni wo zhi dao, ke shi ni shi bu shi xin huan ta? ru guo shi, ke yi qin kou ken wo suo ma? bei zai suo wo xiang tai duo.. tui wo zhi dao wo hen xi huan xiang dong xi.. ke shi, ni yi wei wo yao de ma? wei she mo? wei she mo wo jiu shi zhua bu dao ni de xin?? wei sheng mo???? wo xian zai zi neng mo mo de zai ni shen pian, mo mo de pei zhe ni, xi wang ni tian tian neng kai kai xin xin.. kan dao ni tui zhe wo xiao, wo yi jin xin man yi zhu le.. from now on, i sure hold the characteristic of xiao zhu.. ya i wan to be like him.. haha..

yo i am back.. finally i feel enlightened.. dunno y.. jus feel it tat way.. now i noe wat i shld do already.. i hav my aims, my dreams.. i noe i can achieve it.. haha.. for those who hav been consistent reading my blog, u all shld noe who u are... haha.. it's ok la.. i am alright wif it already.. like i said.. i am enlightened by some mysterious things.. lol.. i believe i can be the same old zw like i use to be in secondary sch.. nothing can really affect mi anymore.. onli mi can affect myself.. haha.. thanks for those who hav been concern abt mi n advise mi.. i noe i am a stubborn pig.. but nvm.. it's ok man.. cos tat's the reasons u all love mi rite?? haha.. n for those who i hav been treating badly one.. really very sorry.. hope i hav a chance to pay back.. lol.. now trying hard to find time for my drum practices man.. cos next wk going to jam le.. cannot be such a lousy standard.. i wan to perform in teacher's day one.. if not i learn drum for wat?? haha.. but so man stupid tests n hmks restricting my time.. omg.. maybe i shall practice at night till morning.. later going to get a contacts.. dun care whether they say i look nice or not.. i jus wan to wear it.. haha.. cos i am changing.. changing for the better la of cos.. haha..

recently i like post blog.. means tat i am trouble n no one to confide to.. yup i really dun hav anyone to confide to.. i so envy wif those ppl who can be best frens for yrs n yet their relationship still so damn good.. everytime i ask myself, y shld i be so stupid to fall in love?? den make myself suffer n sad over tis gal?? i already tried to surpress it but in the end i still can't.. they all say maybe i am way too serious.. but all i wan jus to giv her the best i can n make her happy all the time.. but the problem is, i can't make things rite.. i can't make her happy, instead i make her fed up.. i tried to care for her, but she dun wan mi to.. i wan to tell her alot of things, but she dun bother to listen.. how i wish she will accept mi, but i noe it's impossible.. i dunno y.. u everytime say i tink too much?? am i?? i feel tat u r like more n more becoming like her.. wat i wan is to noe how u r now.. i jus wan to see u reply mi.. i jus wan to hear ur problems n stand by ur side.. but u dun let mi.. i noe, i noe u trying to make a very clear stand tat we r not tgt.. ya i noe we r nt tgt.. i noe u feel uncomfortable.. i noe u dun like ppl say n start to spread rumors.. i already tried to stop tis things le.. but i dun wish to see u avoid mi.. when i saw u tok to others so happily, i wonder how n wat i shld do to make u feel the same way when u r wif mi.. i dun care whether u still like G or not.. wat it matters is i lv u.. but do u noe it?? can i show it?? will u accept it?? i dunno whether u will read tis post or not.. but when u read tis, pls dun feel fed up or angry wif mi or watever.. tat's jus how i feel, u dun hav to care.. hope things between us can be better, cos like i had said ytd, i dun wan to giv u up.. i can't bear to.. i dun wish to.. so, i am trying very hard le.. i will wait for u.. no matter how long.. u may tink tis is empty promise.. but tat's how i wish i can do it.. ya true maybe i cannot keep my promises, but i will try my best to do so.. i am going to perform in teacher's day.. but the purpose for mi to do so is not for the teacher, is for u.. u shld noe y.. i hope one day, or even jus a hr, a min or even a sec, i will stay in ur heart for tat very moment.....

i dunno wat's wrong wif mi tdy.. seriously.. when i am alone, i tend to tink a lot of things... dunno y, suddenly found out tat i actually can't really click well with anyone.. can't be wif zx.. cannot be wif germ, phyllis... n now.. in sharon they all tis grp... i was always the one been left out.. it like always 3-a-side and i am the onli one left behind.. nobody willing to share their secret to mi.. nobody will wan to tok to mi.. maybe i tink too much.. but maybe not.. can u all tell mi wat's wrong wif mi?? am i really tat irritating?? if i am, i am very very sorry.. i dun wan to be left out.. i dun wan to be alone.. but wat can i do?? n u.. i noe maybe to u is fine.. but i am a very sensetive guy.. i really really like u alot.. i noe u hav him in ur mind.. maybe u can't let him go.. maybe u can't forget him.. but no matter, i respect ur decision.. but pls dun tell mi to giv up.. tat's the last thing i wan to hear from u.. maybe ws is rite.. i am so stupid.. she already so obvious say she dun like mi le.. yet i still hang on there dun wanna let go.. but i am tis kind of person mah.. wat to do.. tdy u like trying to make clear tat mi is not ur bf?? i dunno.. jus gt tat feeling.. but all tis while i nv tink u r my gf.. i pei bu shang ni.. ya maybe i am too emo.. i dunno wat i am saying mi.. ahhhhhh forget it.. pls.. anyone who read tis blog.. pls pretend u didn't do it before ok??

hi i am back!! finally the truth is out.. and i am right in my judgement! but i feel sad for germ phy they all.. all becos of the evil woman we all become like tis.. omg.. saw germ's blog n she said she found someone's blog.. izzit mine?? omg.. germ if u looking at my blog, pls dun look at it anymore ok?? i wan it to be my own one.. haha.. sry.. but i jus wan to say thank you for everything n pls dun be sad ok?? dun lose trust in everyone, u jus hav to make sure tat u r making the rite frens tat's all.. not i wan to say u, but i feel tat u hav to be more mature in handling tis kind of things.. n try not be tat dramatic ok?? i so sry to say all tis.. enuff of tis.. i jus wan to treat it as nth had happen.. although it's like nth had happen.. but sharon.. haiz, another problem of mine.. i noe tat she has no feelings towards mi at all.. i noe she ask mi to giv her time.. i noe she also asked mi to giv her up.. but how i wish she can aknowledge my love towards her.. how i wish she can accept mi.. how i wish i can be wif her forever.. but she is avoiding all tis things.. maybe is i really tink too much.. but i really felt it tat way.. i am really afraid. afraid tat she will fall in love wif others.. afraid she will starts to avoid mi.. afraid of many many things.. can anyone tell mi wat shld i do?? ws ask mi to giv up too.. but i can't.. jus like i can't giv up P in the past.. maybe i am too serious in this love thing.. but tat's the way i am.. i jus wan to giv the person i love watever i can.. ya by rite i shld not hav ask anything from her.. but who won't wan to hav things return back to u?? come on.. how i wish i can enter her heart man.. but it's really difficult.. damn rite difficult..

omg.. i am back.. now no more mood to tok abt OBS anymore.. my class now having kind of conflict.. tink maybe is becos of mi?? i dunno.. y can't u all jus let mi be wif who i wanna be n pls shut up n leave no comments.. n u J.. r u really tat bitchy?? y mus u always say sharon until so bad?? n y mus u go around n spread tis rumor n makin them believe u?? now u hav achieve ur aim.. can u pls stop it?? dun make things worst ok.. dun force mi to beat woman for the first time.. pls.. i going to go out of control le.. so pls stop watever u trying to do now.. ya i fall in love wif sharon so wat?? y mus u go around n say those bad things abt sharon??? wat hav she done wrong?? i dun wan to hate u all but u force mi too.. u keep telling mi tat sharon is a bad gal.. den where's the fuking proof?? everytime ask u yet u keep avoiding.. if u hav solid proof jus tell mi.. but if u dun.. den shut ur fuking mouth.. i gettin fed up by tis thing.. can't u all jus let mi decide who i wan to be wif?? all those things u all trying to do is not going to stop mi from liking sharon.. but u r causing so much trouble to sharon.. pls.. dun disturb her anymore.. come to mi if u all wan..

YOU ARE SO NEAR YET YOU SEEM SO FAR

Lee Zhuwen

Yishun Junior College

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drums and jamming are my new loves.

not forgetting soccer n badminton..

love my drumset too..

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17th June 1989

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