School is sooooo BORING!!! Everyone was so tired today, including me.. Guess everyone just don't have the mood to study at all.. I bet no one give a shit for this friday's A'level chinese man.. Haiz.. All other schools are having holidays except for YJC!!!! But never mind la, at least can get to see my "Family" mah..
During chinese lesson, wah, all faces are so damn black la.. haha.. Then, Mrs Ang, I think she has given up hope on us?? haha.. Don't care man.. She's abit strange nowadays.. lol.. Then during OP, can say i screwed up abit? haha.. thanks to my "laopo", Lim Mei Xing and her scandalous boyfriend, Lim Wei Sheng.. haha.. Keep making me laugh.. and my legs were shivering which i think phyllis saw it? haha.. So embarassing.. haha..
Tomorrow is going to be a long day again.. Haiz.. Lucky you have friends around who make your life in school not that dull.. haha.. Let's just think on the bright side.. Tomorrow will be a better day??

Finally, I can blog again.. haha.. I kind of missing the beach at sentosa, the roller blading time at ECP.. how i wish we could go there again.. haha.. A'lvl chinese is coming, yet i don't seems to have the mood to take man.. it's so boring to take exam after promos.. i just feel like slacking all the way man.. haha.. but no matter what we still have to move on.. haha.. looks like nowadays there is something wrong with some of my frens around me?? hope everything will be fine for them... i find it strange, when i have no worries or problems, then my friends around me start to have.. haha.. am i the jinx?? lol.. no matter what, just hope that they could solve the probkem ASAP.. haha.. oh ya.. ytd i almost going to experience an awful scene man. i saw a lady walking in the middle of the road and shout " Come! Come and bang Me!!!" oh my god it was so scary la.. i thought she really thought of commit suicide man.. and i almost dash out the road trying to save her.. lucky the cars are not in fast speed.. and think that lady isn't that foolish at all.. after seeing that she is fine, i quickly walked home.. lol.. kind of scare by this kind of things.. haha.. ok i am timid.. lol..

There is something in my heart which has been inside for quite some time.. But i can't say it out.. lol.. However, I don't feel terrible at all because I know keeping to myself will be better..Oh well, nothing much happen today.. Just went back to school and did OP.. Omg, my prounciation is terrible.. I just have to try my best.. lol.. Actually I supposed to go out with Keng Guan and Long Seng one.. But i was really damn tired.. I'm sorry guys, didn't mean to PS you all.. I will make up for you two.. So sorry...Had a good long sleep in the afternoon.. It has been long since i sleep until so comfortable.. haha.. These few days have beening sleeping for like a few hours only, finally i can get to sleep for so long man.. haha.. Maybe i was too tired today, feeling quite emo?? Lol.. just don't feel good at all.. don't know why.. haha..Oh this post is so strange, don't even know what am i doing man.. haha

today was totally FUN!!!! haha.. i realise that my life after promos are so fun and cool man.. it's so great to live without books.. jus everyday fun fun fun!!! haha.. shiok.. lol..
ok, today went sentosa with Ws, Mx, Jy n Fred.. haha.. ws ar, forever will be late one lor.. he made me wait for him for like half an hour la.. while waiting, saw soon yong n sharon.. haha.. they are the first yjcians i saw today.. then at aroun 930am, finally the "queen" came man.. the irritating thing is that, he didn't even apologise and yet scold me for sitting in a place where he can't see me!?! wth lor.. haha..
after meet up with mx at harbour front.. ate wonton mee while waitinh for jy.. when we reach the beach, i say zhiwei!! haha.. so long never see her lor and she is still so tiny.. haha.. zw, go eat more and grow bigger la.. haha..
when we laid our towels and began to tan, groups of yjcians came.. omg, basically we were surrounded by yjcians lor.. haha.. after tanning, went to play abit of volleyball.. haha.. looks like zhi wei can be my good partner in both badminton n volleyball..
after all these, we went to vivo city.. i was damn hungry and become a bit crazy then.. haha.. thus we went to Noodle Hut to eat ramen.. omg it was so nice but the serving is quite small.. maybe i was too hungry.. while eating, i didn't even say anything as i was totally engrossed in eating the ramen.. haha.. and that's the end of the day.. it was really tiring but really very fun.. jus like the day we went to ECP..haha..
oh ya, like what mx had said, sry phyllis, didn't mean to PS you all one.. but we really damn tired le.. next time ya.. haha.. enjoy yourself..

don't know what happen to our group man.. i seriously don't know what's wrong.. can you two girls say out the problem?? what's the use of avoiding us??

i know i am a coward.. i don't know why, i just can't bare to see negative things happen.. i rather myself being the one suffering than seeing a fight man.. yes i agree i am useless, but do you all think i want to be like this? haha.. not my fault la.. cause that's just me.. tonight i'm going to have a talk with her, so u guys better don't say i useless again ok??? and don't worry la, i will stick to you all forever, cause you all put superglue on me onto you all.. haha..

tdy is tiring but a fun day!!! haha.. went ECP with mx, ws, gy and fred... lol.. it's so fun roller blading man.. but one embarassing thing is that i FELL down.. omg.. so painful man.. some more i bled.. haha.. lucky no pretty girls saw me.. if not, lose face man.. haha.. then i remembered something happen while we were bladding.. is that i thought mx was farting while cycling, omg then i gave that face which make her laugh until.. she hor, really thick skin man.. at there keep shouting and laughing like nobody's business like that.. so unglam la.. somemore zou kwuang man.. haha.. today can say quite fun bah.. and i can't wait for friday, where we going SENTOSA!!! haha.. i want to sun-tan.. haha.. but one thing, i scare i nose bleed man.. lol.. mx should know why.. haha.. recently i start to drink milk everyday man.. now i am very determined to train myself to become fitter man.. my activities now are much more healtier.. but tired la.. never mind, i will try my best one.. haha.. but got school tomorrow.. until 5pm lei.. so shit.. haha..

yay! i went swimming today!!! haha.. i'm proud of myself man.. i swam don't know how many laps but i'm sure it's more than 10!! haha.. when i first start swimming, i was very scared.. i dunno why, suddenly like have phobia in water.. lol.. i swam half way and i saw the 1.8m deep pool when i dive in.. i don't know why, my mind suddenly thought of being drowned and my whole body became weak.. omg.. luckily, i quickly swam to the side lane man.. if not, something bad happen? haha.. anyway, after that got something bad happened? i don't want to say it.. ws shld know why.. omg it's so disgusting la.. haha.. forget it man.. tomorrow going ECP wif mei xing, ws, guan yu, and the F... haha.. hope it will be find.. first time hang out with them.. lol.. until now then i know that 3 nov is A'lvl Chinese.. omg, is like i'm not prepared at all la.. what the hell man.. lol.. and the stupid school, really damn sucks man.. we have school until 18 nov.. other JCs already in holiday?? it's so so so not fair la.. and school re-opens we are going to have block tests??? shit man.. i want to work one lei!!!!! how can the school do this to us??? man..

oh man, this is the second day i stay at home whole day after promos.. no no.. i cannot do it.. i must go out.. haha.. i very long time never buy clothes already, but i no money.. so how how?? i want to work, but i cannot find one.. how how how?? haha.. never mind, jus pray that money will drop from the sky.. haha.. my hands are very jelly right now.. all because of those work outs.. but never mind, no pain, no gain.. haha.. i believe one day my muscle will be bigger.. then when comes to buying clothes, i need not worry so much.. as i have much more variety to wear.. haha.. recently i'm in love with swimming.. so i keep asking around to go swimming with me. haha.. tml going swimming with ws.. and Germ still owe me once.. lol.. i am planning to swim at least twice a week.. haha.. i want to train myself to be a fitter person.. for the sake of my health.. it's so scary to see my lungs so weak.. haha..

today is a peaceful and relaxing day for me.. although i stay at home whole day, but i felt much more relaxing and carefree.. because i don't need to study anymore n can jus slack at home doing what i want to do.. staying at home doing work outs, playing guitar, watching tv, eating tibits can be fun too.. but i can't do this for my holidays.. so my friends, u all should know what to do ok.. haha.. tomorrow i am going for a swim.. i want to train my lungs, train myself to be fitter.. haha.. had a chat wif phy just now. realised that i had lost a very good friend.. kind of disappointed and hurt.. i dunno why and what had made you become like this.. but if that's the way you want to lead your life, then fine man.. but when everything is going against you, don't hope that all your friends will come and help you, support you ok.. all i can say is, u will get your retirbution one.. whenever my sec school friends asked me about you, i seriously don't know what to say man.. these five years, i just have to forget about it.. ya..

yay!! promos is over.. haha... i enjoyed myself very very much.. finally i can get some good slp.. hahaha.. i did a very good record man. is that i wore YJC uniform the whole day man.. went to town, then went to bugis.. walk whole day man.. so tired but fun.. haha.. finally i have the chance to meet my sec sch friends.. we went to do facial at cityspa.. cool rite.. some more it's free.. because my sis is at there having training.. lol.. so shiok man.. haha.. after that walking here and there, trying to find some clothes for myself.. it's been such a loing time i went to town man.. i feel so isolated to the world.. haha.. until now, i'm still outside.. with my bestie, hwee boon.. haha.. ya really never see her for quite some time.. she keep saying missing me.. haha.. so mushy... haha.. but nvm la.. let her be.. see her so high.. omg, cannot stand her man.. oh ya.. tml i'm going swimming and playing pool.. yay!!! another fruitful day is waiting for me.. haha..

finally, 2 papers had gone.. haha.. left 2 more.. jia you.. had chem yesterday.. thought it was quite alright bah.. it basically tested us our theories, which i like it more.. it's so much better than calculations man.. i think i just sucks at math.. like today's math paper.. all of them say the first few questions are quite easy... but i already like left out so many blanks.. think i'm going to fail maths man.. i don't want.. hais.. just pray that at least i could get a sub-pass.. tml's bio.. kind of studied finish.. but not sure whether can do well or not.. i don't want to jus pass, i wanna score AAAAAA!!!! haha.. ok enough of promos.. because it is ending soon.. haha.. now already planning what to do after thurs econs paper..=p

i guess i am happy the way i am now.. no more distractions, no more problems (cause i just heck care), everyday come to school with the smily face.. that's what everyone wants to see i supposed.. but then again, i start to lose faith in alot of things.. haha.. but it doesn't matter, as long as i didn't lose faith in myself.. i believe one day, i can find the way i want to live.. it's gonna be very perfect for me i think.. haha.. but got one thing suddenly struck into myself.. is that friends always come n go.. so when will your this batch of friends be gone? you will never know.. so have to cherish every moment, every second.. doesn't matter whether you are close with that person or not.. as long as you two know each other, i feel that both should cherish each other.. and i am trying to do all these things.. not only to my current clique, but also to my previous one.. must not left anyone out.. oh.. sound so emo.. lol.. jus feel like saying it.. hahaha..

Promos are here today!!! omg so excited n nervous man.. i jus wan tis to get over quickly so i can enjoy to the fullest.. i did a good thing ytd.. to mi, i feel tat it's good n i wanted to do it.. but to others, they might feel it's unnessary.. anyway, wat i did was, i send messages to everyone in YJC whose numbers are in my phonebook, wishing them good luck!! haha.. jus hope that my wishing can help them a bit n let them know that they have friends around to go through this hardships with them.. received quite alot of messages back.. one of the very special one is from Soon Yong.. haha.. strange right?? lol.. he say " make sure next year we perform as a band again".. oh man.. the moment i saw this message, i seriously miss YE, GEN, AND, n SY.. they helped me alot during that performing period.. n i really miss performing alot man.. hope next yr we can join those competitions ok?? i want to PERFORM!!! haha.. ok, enough... today having chemistry.. hope that all i had studied will not go in vain please.. i really want to get As.. haha.. Good luck to everyone and MYSELF!!! hahahaa..

oh so weird man tat guy or whoever left the comment.. haha.. anyway.. dun bother man.. but i feel it's very ride of him/her to do so man.. yes "it" can give comments, but at least in a more polite way man.. lol.. ah.. dun bother by "it".. haha.. 2 more days to chem paper n i still hav 2 chapters to go.. den still mus revise all over again.. making sure i wil noe everything.. haha.. after promos, there's alot of things for mi to do man.. mainly is to hav fun!!! haha.. FUN FUN FUN!!! oh pls, promos, pls go away faster.. haha..

firstly, i would like to apologise to those who read my post ytd.. really so sry for being so rude.. ya.. jus need to vent out some of my anger.. ok.. monday is promos already... n guess wat?? i am still lacking of time to finish all those chapters man.. wat the hell.. going to sch is jus waste of time.. spending time toking.. doing pw.. wat the hell man.. lol.. y, when the exams are coming, everyone starts to show their true self.. maybe due to stress? no way man, tat jus a lame excuse lor.. y the reality is so cruel.. y mus i get to noe all this man.. can't i jus stay in my wonderland n be very comfortable at there.. but at the same time, it's very lucky to hav ppl around mi, telling mi to face the reality n stop being so innocent.. ya, i really shld stop being so naive.. once again, i disappointed myself.. jus can't reject ppl.. whenever they ask mi to do, i will jus say "ok".. is like in my dictionary, there is no rejection.. i duno the meaning of reject.. haha.. yea mx, i shld really stop trying to be so nice.. cos no point man.. they dun see it, they dun feel it, nor they sense it.. they jus tink tat it's a MUST to be nice to them.. maybe ws is rite, maybe i feel it tat way tat's y i am so sad.. maybe tink in such a way can make mi feel better? ya jus let mi be the bad guy.. like tdy in the library, the 3 "girls" sitting in front of mi n were like opposing mi.. saying "guys sux!!".. haha.. ya to them, all guys sux.. yes i agree in the past.. cos i was one of those guys too.. i used to be very sucky.. but now i hav changed.. trying to change for the better.. but no one is willing to giv mi chance to prove them.. n no one feels the same way as i do.. this period is really very hard to go through.. not onli mi.. i believe the rest feel the same way too.. it's hard to go thru not becos of promos, but many many other things which are INSIGNIFICANT to others.. but here i wan to say is those insignificant things are damn important to mi ok.. at the end of the day, i still believe that being nice to others is a better way to treat ur life.. even though they might not reciprocrate back to u.. but at least u will feel good man.. cos i've been doing al these n i am feeling great when doing all this.. but do not be too overboard.. cos it disappoint u even more.. n one last thing, ppl u all have to being believe in KARMA.. wat comes around, goes around.. so beware of RETRIBUTIONS!!!! haha..

i find tat my life getting more n more sux.. wat the fuk am i doing in JC.. i shld hav go poly instead.. den all these worries wouldn't hav appear.. i would not hav pon sch n being scold by my teacher.. den i wouldn't go to see the doctor n hear the fuking bad news.. which is my lungs are weak.. full of phlegm.. wat the fuk.. no wonder ytd i went jogging my chest hurts so much.. is becos my lungs are spoiled.. yay great.. den now i hav to do the fuking pw n I&R.. can all these things fuk off.. it's so irritating.. i needa study.. i dun wanna get retained.. it's so fuking waste to stay for another year in tis fuking jc.. fine, i will do everything whoever ask mi.. who call mi dunno how to reject ppl.. dunno how to back up for myself..jus to see myself getting bullied by everyone.. ya i am "mr nice" guy.. but is it worth to be one.. in the end ppl still tink i am jus a fuking flirt, hooligan.. watever la.. who cares.. if i really retained, i gonna isolate myself from everyone.. so tat i can onli concentrate on my studies.. n dun hav to care other ppl's buisiness.. that's so great man.. wat the use of keep trying to help everyone where mi can't even help myself.. wat the use of being nice where not all will be nice to u.. from now on, i gonna try to heck care things n learn to reject ppl.. no more "mr nice" zhuwen ok.. it's useless, no use being nice, cos nobody will recongise it..

Busted- Without You
The way you always made me look at you
With all the simple things you said
The way so many things surrounded you
And all the tears it seemed to make
And they were falling
There's nothing left to say
And I can't break free
Not from in me there
And I can't breathe without you
I can't breathe without you
I can't breathe without you
Without you, without you, without you
The way I never thought I'd leave this place
The way you made it seem so real
Cause you have faith and you had everything
And all I needed was this
And now we're falling
Got nothing left to say?
And I can't break free
Not from in me there
And I can't breathe without you
I can't breathe without you
I can't breathe without you
Without you, without you, without you
How can I let you leave this way?
Without you I'm not at all
And I see things now in these memories
Just to see you...again


could not imagine the time without you.. but, will u feel the same too?? will all those things jus be memories??

see the time now? i now crazy, i am so damn fed up now.. actually i could study n revise for my promos one.. but jus becos the ******* wr, i didn't get to study at all.. seriously waste my time man.. wat the ****.. if i failed my promos jus becos of this ******* pw.. i gonna kill someone.. they are jus a bunch of selfish kids man.. think tat the others will help them correct their mistakes.. **** off.. i promised myself not to scold vulgar, therefore i use tis * to substitute.. lol.. damn pissed off la.. i really wanna study, but look at the time now, if i still dun get some slp, tml i will be dead.. i dun feel like going to sch.. but i hav no choice.. i scare later cannot take promos.. wat a ******* shit thing man.. i hate them.. they sux.. shit them la.. **** u.. ah, watever.. as if they will noe..



i am full of jealousy.. haha.. full of suspicious.. n full of emotions.. but i can surpressed it all.. cos the moment i look at u, all those things gone even though i noe it still exist.. when i fall, will u be the one who catch mi? n when u fall, can i be the one to hold u?? i noe nth can change the fact, but i jus dun like the reality, it's so cruel.. so y not jus pretend i dun mind at all.. at least i will feel better n u too.. everyday, i am thinking wat i shld do.. so as to make sure u are not sad whenever i am around.. but guess i am not the one who could do tat.. tot of givin up? yes tat was in the past... but it's even more painful to giv up, so rather not.. however persist isn't good either.. but i would prefer that, cos at least u won't feel bad n i won't suffer tat much too.. i believe, one day, i can find a place in ur heart.. doesn't matter whether is it a small, isolated corner.. as long as i could fit into ur heart, i dun mind at all..

stress stress stress!!! it's coming!!! haha... relax man.. everything will go fine one rite zhuwen??haha.. but the stupid haze hor.. really killing everybody man... many hav difficulties in breathing.. as for mi, my eye gt infected!!! so itchy n pain man.. somemore i gt asthma, that's even worst.. haha.. but tat's not going to stop mi from studying.. i wan to be as productive or even more productive like ytd.. hahaha.. oh i forgt to say abt yih lin.. she is really very sweet to buy presents for us in taiwan.. the sweet taste very nice.. haha.. thanks yih lin.. haha.. cya soon after my promos.. lol.. after promos i gonna meet up alot of ppl.. but i scare i dun hav the time as i am going to find work.. how how.. nvm.. time management.. haha.. now i jus wan to say, thanks guys for helping all these while and now onli left 1 more wk to promos le.. jus go all the ok?? jia you everybody.. let's get promoted.. include u, u ,u and u.. haha... alot of yous.. haha..



guess now everything is fine.. hope nth like tis will happen again.. thx alot cos u care abt tis thing.. but like i say, u can't really help mi.. cos the problem lies within mi.. u can onli help mi unless... haha.. ah tat's impossible.. i will try to change my attitude ok?? btw mus take care of urself.. dun stress urself too much.. i noe i am naggy.. but i dun care.. i am going to "fan" u always.. hahaha...

why? y is it always my fault??? loving a person is soooo painful.. i seriously tink tat there's is a huge misunderstanding between us.. yes i am giving u black face.. i am treating u cold.. but not becos i hate u or wat.. is becos i dunno how to react.. seeing u in such a pain makes mi hurt even more.. how i wish i could ask whether r u ok or not.. but i noe i shld not.. cos i am scared.. afraid tat i will love u even more.. u wan mi to giv up hopes on u n right now i am trying.. u can't expect mi to be happy when i am doing things i dun like rite.. den whenever u all start to tok abt "him" or wat.. wat u wan mi to react? join in the fun? it's impossible man.. i jus wan to be ur guardian angel and tat's it.. but the problem, i can't even do it.. i noe i am useless.. i sux!! ya.. seeing u in pain makes mi woory abt u.. but i can't ask u.. n tis kind of surpressed feeling is not good at all.. i dunno y... i tried very very hard to forget abt u.. but the image of u keep appearing in my mind.. even though i noe that i won't even get a single chance, yet i still like to tink n daydream abt it.. pls.. pls do not be angry wif mi.. i really dun mean to.. but if u wan mi to giv up on u, i really hav no choice but to do tis.. however, my feelings towards u does not change.. I am sry...

my arms are very very weak now.. stupid training of mine la.. haha.. but nvm, after promos, u guys can see my muscles are getting larger n i am fitter!!! haha.. jus wait man.. lol.. life now is so so so boring.. besides studying, nth else we can do.. all becos of wat? PROMOS!!! haha.. gt one thing i very bu shuang, which is LIMMEIXING!!! she wrote something to everyone except for mi!!! lol.. nvm la.. i understand, cos i getting quieter mah.. haha.. sry la... i trying to act cool la.. lol.. actually is jus too tired to tok man.. n somemore u all the "gals" tok, haiyo, can expect mi to add in rite?? cos I AM THE MAN!!! hahaha.. heard tat WS.. lol.. okok.. enuff, needa go study le..




the situation now are so peaceful??? it's good to u.. but nah, totally sux for mi.. yes i did it, i have given up on pinning hopes.. ya there's no pt to wish anything when there is nothing.. lame rite? onli one person noes how i am feeling rite now, which is myself.. actually i am not sad, cos i shld not be.. if not my frens will be disappointed wif mi.. i feeling numb, dunno y.. i tink i failed to be a guradian angel..

haha.. tml is promos le man... n i am still at here doing wat?!?! slacking man.. lol.. how could i do tat?? haha.. but nvm la.. jus hope tat i can do well in tml's gp n chinese papers... not onli mi, i believe all my frens can do well too!!! rite guys?? haha.. JIA YOU JIA YOU JIA YOU!!!!! let's all be muggers for the 2 weeks n after tat we can go n play like crazy!! haha.. oh ya, i composed one song during the past 4 days while mugging.. lol.. impressive rite?? haha.. but received quite alot of bad comments man.. but it's a good start for mi i tink.. at least i can compose it wif my guitar.. i jus simply love music.. after promos i wan to get myself busy wif work n earn money.. cos i wan to get an electric guitar for myself!!! omg den my hse can be a jamming room man.. gt drumset, gt guitar, gt speakers, gt microphones.. i can't wait to get that guitar man.. lol.. it's been days i seen my frens.. kind of miss them? lol.. so emo n gayish.. lol.. but ya these 4 days staying at home seriously sux.. is like i'm been disconnect from the outside world man.. lol.. nvm tml i can see them le, but all sure will be frowning due to the exam.. haha.. nvm la.. see their black face also not bad.. haha..



my journey ends here n a new chapter starts too.. no more pinning on hope, no more wishing thinking, NO MORE!! being a gurdian angel is enough.. ya..

YOU ARE SO NEAR YET YOU SEEM SO FAR

Lee Zhuwen

Yishun Junior College

L0vES
drums and jamming are my new loves.

not forgetting soccer n badminton..

love my drumset too..

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