why? y is it always my fault??? loving a person is soooo painful.. i seriously tink tat there's is a huge misunderstanding between us.. yes i am giving u black face.. i am treating u cold.. but not becos i hate u or wat.. is becos i dunno how to react.. seeing u in such a pain makes mi hurt even more.. how i wish i could ask whether r u ok or not.. but i noe i shld not.. cos i am scared.. afraid tat i will love u even more.. u wan mi to giv up hopes on u n right now i am trying.. u can't expect mi to be happy when i am doing things i dun like rite.. den whenever u all start to tok abt "him" or wat.. wat u wan mi to react? join in the fun? it's impossible man.. i jus wan to be ur guardian angel and tat's it.. but the problem, i can't even do it.. i noe i am useless.. i sux!! ya.. seeing u in pain makes mi woory abt u.. but i can't ask u.. n tis kind of surpressed feeling is not good at all.. i dunno y... i tried very very hard to forget abt u.. but the image of u keep appearing in my mind.. even though i noe that i won't even get a single chance, yet i still like to tink n daydream abt it.. pls.. pls do not be angry wif mi.. i really dun mean to.. but if u wan mi to giv up on u, i really hav no choice but to do tis.. however, my feelings towards u does not change.. I am sry...
