Wednesday, September 27, 2006
i am gettting sick!! sick n tired of studying.. how i wish i could jus forget everything n go on wif my carefree life.. lol.. dun wish to bother abt whether i will retain or wat.. who cares man?? lol.. jus try my best can le.. maybe the lifestyle of studying until 4am doesn't work for mi.. i can't really concentrate man.. so shit.. haha.. tml has pe.. i wan to enjoy the fullest during tat period man... so to destress n....
i dunnno wat's wrong wif mi today.. y am i always like contridicting myself.. saying tat i dun mind u like other guy but at the same time i dun wish u to like him.. i dun care whether u accept mi or not.. but at the same time i wan to be wif u 4ever.. wat the fuk am i tinking? y?? y am i so useless?? maybe, maybe i shld jus be a flirt?? nah i cannot be one again.. i had already lost the charisma.. i really wan to cry, but i noe i can't.. cos it's like so useless to do so.. so wat for cry rite?? yea, maybe i am not ur idea guy.. but i dun wan to giv up.. y am i so persistent to u?? even though ws had said that i shld giv up.. but y am i so stubborn? maybe i shall be single for the rest of my life?? can anyone tell mi wat i shld do?? actually i shld not ask, cos i noe wat they will say.. rite guys?? but u all dunno.. mi myseld also dunno y am i like tis.. i find myself stupid too.. haiz.. omg, i can't feel my heartbeat, maybe it's gone?? pls, can u tell mi wat i shld do to make u fall in love wif mi? to be frank, i dun mind being a substitute.. i dun mind being a ball to being thrown around.. as long as u are fine wif it.. i dun mind be anything.. sry to my frens.. everytime make u all so fed up wif mi.. i try my best to stay cheerful ok?? but no assurance ok?? maybe i shld not hav come to JC.. leading such a stressful life made mi even more depress.. wat will be my tml???
;rock YOU.
10:43 PM
