hi i am back from a one day chalet.. didn;t really get to enjoy fully.. cos i was very worry abt my promos n many other stuffs.. my state of mind now very confuse after i saw ws blog.. i feel tat i am so useless.. jus a little setback n i broke down... omg, tat's really very useless.. but nvm.. i will try my best to be strong as ever... lol.. ytd, before going to chalet, i JAMMED at hse!!! omg, JAMMING!!! haha.. actually is a mini version la.. mi, my sis n bro, we on the karaoke set audio, n i played guitar, while my brother played the drum...(although not really tat gd, but still commendable) den my sis sang.. n u noe wat? we perform the song by jay "qing tian".. omg so fun.. haha.. den after i rush down to pasir ris to meet my sec sch frens.. den i performed guitar for them again!! lol.. looks like they hav a different impression of mi.. so happy.. haha.. bt was quite disappointed wif someone.. he say he would come, den in the end like usual, he didn;t.. not tat i dun understand him, is jus tat if he cannot come, at least giv us a call or wat n dun giv false hope mah.. hais.. forget it.. he now is in the state of "love".. so ya.. i wan to study again:( damn sad can.. hais.. so stress.. lol.. but i can take it.. haha..
i found out something, i noe everything le.. maybe really, really i shld not force u to make decision le.. besides, i tink u already made urs.. u dun hav to say anything, i shall not bother u anymore.. but no matter wat, i noe we will still be frens bah.. pls pardon mi if i these few days behave strangely.. is becos i dunno how to face u.. really.. sry.. if u really like him, den go for it.. i will support u.. u may tink tat by writing this seems like i hav given up on u, but i jus wanna say tat i didn't n i will nv giv up.. guess i shall be alone for the rest of my life.. pls god, pls let tis gal get her happiness.. pls let them be tgt again.. all i wan is to see u smile n be happy like u used to be.. i dunno whether will u be reading my posts.. ah.. i dunno wat to say.. my heart is broken yet at the same time i noe i hav to let u go.. shld not bother u.. shld even help u to be wif him?? some ppl say, "loving someone dun really needs to be wif her".. in the past, i use to think tat it's all bullshit.. but now, i tink i am doing tis rite now.. if u like tis kind of situation we r in now, dun worry, we will carry on be like tis.. but no matter wat, i shall be ur guardian angel.. trust mi, i will not let anyone hurt u.. n if u n him really tgt, pls better make sure he treats u nice.. if not i will not let him off.. i will change, i wanna change.. i wan to change to the zw who dun even giv a damn abt gals, jus focus on wat i wan, which is music.. maybe music can help mi forget everything.. forget all the pains... bt there's one thing i will not forget, tat is U... u may be the first woman who let mi burst out my tears.. or maybe not.. pls make sure tat u r happy, if u r happy, tat's everything to mi.. really...
